Last day of 2007! hahas.

Today, went to school to check out the class.
Phew!
I think the class is rather good! (:

Sheena is in my class too! hahahas!

Yesterday morning,
Mummy woke me up to go my aunty house with her.
SO, went there & took some food including my favourite honey baked ham & cheese cake! (:
Then, went over to another aunty house, hahas.
It was my first time there as she shifted house a couple of months ago.
Hahas.
My little niece made me play barbie with her. -.-
So, i just play with her la. She soo stingy lor. take all the clothes away~
then i manage to snatch back a korean costume. hahas.
So childish... Fighting with a 7 year old for a clothes for barbie.
lol.

Then, before we went back home, me & mummy go shopping for awhile.
& bought me a new short & t-shirt. hahas.
Dont know why mummy suddenly so nice.
hahas.She even give me 20 bucks more to buy school shoes.
But, i went to buy those cheapo shoes la.
Only 13 bucks. Hohoho!
No point wearing such a expensive shoes to sch mah. LOLS!~

I was browsing my past photos.
Trying to clear some pictures...
And i saw this picture. & some other pictures which i took with HaoYing.
Suddenly, felt soo sad... & start missing him & gege.


Ever since, they went back to Taiwan, HaoYing & I seem like we had already lost contact... I haven spoken a single word to him since he left. Even on msn, he always either online for a few sec or appeared offline.That is no way for me to talk to him. Now, im feeling so afraid that i might forever lose contact with him and never talk to him again.







People who read this might think i am crazy or whatever.
You guy will never know how am i feeling now.



Among all the people i supported, he is the most important to me. He is different from the other people i supported. He can be motivating, funny and cool. & most importantly, he is very sincere.

Recently, he seem busy with his recording and stuff. Hahas.

Anyways, MR ZHANG HAO YING!
I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU ALOTS!

HOHOHO!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!~

This year's Christmas is boring.
As me & my sister will be staying at home rotting.
hahas...

There isnt any Christmas mood for me.

Actually,
I had been thinking of working weekends when school reopen.
Yahs, i wasted my holidays!~
But, if i work weekends, i cant go to church. -.-

I wanna save up money to go for my Malaysia trip to see SuperJunior Concert & Taipei trip with YuinHwei.
Considering how low is my daily allowance, even i dont eat everyday...
then most i will only save up for my Malaysia trip.
Then my Taipei trip not need go liao.
Argh...

Malaysia will cost about 600 bucks.
Concert tickets is already 200 bucks. Plus lodging, transport & makan!~
arghhs.

Taipei even worse!
hahas.
Air tickets about 500 bucks.
lodging estimate is 300-400 bucks. Cause, going there quite long.
300 bucks for buying food & stuff!~
lol.
1000 plus!!~

i think even i work, also not enough money. hahas.
Hopefully, my aunty would sponser money for my Taipei trip.
hahas.
Take it as next year Christmas present plus, two years later de birthday plus, my graduation holiday!~
hahahahas!~

WHERE'S MY HANDPHONE?
omg!~
hahas...
it must be somewhere in my house!!~
but, i just dont remember where i put it. hahas.
Plus, i didnt on the sound of the hp.

Yeah...
Im so so so forgetful.
& lazy!~
Im too lazy to find.

hahas~

The year is ending soon.
8 MORE DAYS till end of 2007.

& 2008 is coming. (:

I hopes all my friends who opt up for Sec5 can be accept to promote to Sec 5~
Especially Sheena!~
:)

wanna wish jeff...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!~

3 More days to Christmas!~
HOHOHOHO!~

Went to Popular to buy physic book.
Hohoho!~

Hardworking Kelly wanna start studying early!
Do you believe it?
Even myself dont believe it.
hahas.

Hohoho!
My aim is 16 points of O levels! (:
Jiayous!

I slacked the whole day!
hohoho!
(:

I saw raynard's friendster!
Got the pictures he took in taipei with HAOTWINS!
Miss Haoying even more after seeing those pictures.

Hmms...
Today went out with Yuin Hwei to buy books for school!~


While waiting for YuinHwei, i saw someone familar.
I think is him la, i saw the backview only though.
But, the way he walk is totally the same as mrNG. Like ah beng. Hahas..
He was with a girl la.
Dont know why i still felt a little uneasy when i start thinking about him with a girl & blah blah blah goes on...
Perhap this 2 years of 'love' hasnt end.
Yah. Actually, i had been cheating on myself that i had gave up on him.
Im a Capricorn, i seek perfect relationship but, afraid to get hurt at the same time.
I think he is perfect although other people dont think the same way.
Apparently, i took his flaws as 'cute-ness'

Since Secondary Two till now i am going to be Secondary Five,
I had be single just because of him.
I meant i can easily find someone who like me more than i like them to be with.
But, because of him i didnt.
Because, i believe i should only be with the one i like.
& He is the one.

This year, i never spoken anything about him.
Really, i hope to end everything.
& not being a burden or hassle to him.
I had to act as if i dont like him anymore to stop everyone gossips.
& to cheat myself that i dont like him.
But, whenever i get to bump into him in the corridoor or at canteen.
I really cant stop myself to look at him for another time.
This feeling is soo weird. Like i suddenly forget what i supposed to do.

Sometimes, i really regreted telling him how i feel.
Because, i know he doesnt like me.
Because, Kelly just dont have anything to like about then.

Somehow, i think now, i changed alots.
Suddenly, i felt all those i did in the past is soo childish.
But, if i kept a secret about it, will i regret too?
Life is full of regrets i think.

I saying all this because this year is his last year in Bowen.
Perhap after he take his O levels results, we will never ever meet again.
Typing the sentence of 'never ever meet again' made me feel sour. Real sour.
Hahas.
I expected this day to come also la.
there is a chinese saying:
天底下沒有不散的宴席.
Everyone will go seperate way one day, it only matters of when.
For us, is early.
We only know each other for 3 years i think.
From our Secondary Two camp.

Hahas.
And the reason why i will like him is very childish & lame.
But, that was only the starting.
It is because, i wanna forget someone.
Not because of how good he is.

But, soon... I being to like him as himself.
Not because i wanna forget someone anymore.
& made me really really like him.
Until now, two years plus already.
Even i try to forget him, i cant do it.
I dont know why too.


I said before, i want nothing from him.
Actually, i lied.
Who doesnt want someone they like to like them back?
Who doesnt want to be with someone they like?
But, i only can lie and say i dont want.
I felt silly really, even now when i type all this.
I felt really really silly.
But, all this are my true feeling.
And i know he wont know it.
But, i just need to place to show it.

Next year, he will no longer be around.
Somehow, i think school will be short of something.
The feeling isnt right i think.
Not much motivation to go school.
I must get used to this 'new enviroment'
Because, i used to the enviroment with him for 2 years.

oyah!
& the most important date of my 16 years life is 05 July 2005.
The day where i met him.
Count him unlucky to be the same group as me during camp.
Hahas. (:

I got back my result already.
I got 6 points! (:

TOTAL.
English: THREE
Combined Hum: TWO
Math: THREE
Science: FOUR
Art: TWO
MT: TWO

I totally gave up on my science.
and i still can get four. whoa.
But, my science result sort of made me look worse.
hahas.
If I get three for science good already! hahas.
Because, then i can get two and threes. hahas.

Quite shocking to get my combined hum, a grade 2. hahas.
SS paper were quite tough...
&& I slacked in my Geo. I only studied SS.
Ok. I slacked in all my subj & only studied SS.
Yeahs! Ms Teo will be coming back to teach us Geo! (:
So happy! If Ms Teo never come back, sure is ms chek teach de.
Can die lor! hahas.

I got Grade 3 for Math.
Mr Goy say Mrs Cheng will kill me! HAHAS.
Also correct la. I USED to be her best student for maths. hahas.
But, that last year.
This year i really slacked alots.
Cause, when the days of N levels exams, im still at MDC. LOLS!
Such a bad girl. hahas.
& my last paper art is the day after Haoying got out.
& i still can get a grade 2. 0.0
But, i remembered i was moodless for my art paper.
& I drew very badly i think.
That shows art paper very easy to pass. I think my canvas not bad bahs.
HAHAHAS!~

OMO! OMO!
Im going to school and get my results already!!~
Wish me good luck. (:

HOHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!

BEST NEWCOMER IS~
PORNSAK!~

YEAH!! HE WON! HE WON!!~
SOOO SOOO SOO HAPPY FOR HIM!~
HAHAS!~
MY FAVE MDC ARTIST!~
HAHAHAS!~

<3 PORNSAK LOTS!~

Im back from Malaysia.(:
Ok. Im back since Monday. Hahas.
Just lazy to blog.

Erm.
Nothing much from the trip.
This time the trip not alots of auntie. But, alots of children.
But, they are quite obedient. Soo im fine with it. (:

Yahs.
3 MORE days to my N levels results.
Hope i will pass with at least a 5 point.
I already got a 2 points for chinese already.
So, give me a 1 point in english. & 2 point in Combined hum!
LOLS!~

I went to a temple in malaysia where i ask whether i can pass my N levels and get promoted.
& I got a good "qian"
A very good one. hahas.
I really hope its true. hahas.

That day must be a stressing day!
hahas. I hope all my friends get promoted. (:
But, Szuchian & Cherilyn wanna go ITE.
That means sixsome will be shorting of TWOSOME. ):

I could just say, im a rather bad friend. hahas.
They always say when we graduate, we will still keep in contact and stuff.
Me & Sheena even wants to be god mother of each other children.
But, now come thinking of it. Will it be true?
Im someone who dont like to go out. Eventually, i wont ask pple to go out.
Sometimes even, my friends ask me to go out. I dont go.
So, how are will going to keep in contact?

I see my sister always going out with her secondary school friends.
Im thinking can i be like her? Will i be like her?
Or maybe i got new friends and i forget the old ones?

But, i know one thing.
If i were to neglect all my secondary school friends.
i wont neglect two of my very very best friends.
Sheena & Szu Chian.

Especially Sheena.
Since the first day of my secondary school life.
We are together already. We quarrel alots during the first two year about childish stuff.
But, we can eventually be back together with just a smile. there no need to say sorry between us.
Everyone knows, Sheena is hot temper. Before we can stops her from doing anything bad, she already done it.
But, compared Sheena now to the earlier days when i know her.
She really really improved alots.
In facts, i like the Sheena now alots when she is calm.
Actually, Sheena is a very nice girl if she can really control her temper.
Really. Although, it not right to try changing someone, but, if i can really change her, i will change her temper.
I think everyone will loves Sheena if she doesnt scold alots.
I really hope sheena will see this post.

SHEENA!
If someone scold you, think before you scold the person back.
Think why the person will scold you. Did you do anything wrong?
Seriously, i think a person wont scold you for nothing.
I knows what happening recently, what jo tells you.
But, you should think why they will say you that way?
Are you abit off limit last time?
Seruously, that time, me myself thought you are off your limits too.
But, it not your fault. It OUR fault. Everyone has a fault in it.
Since is EVERYONE faults. Why dont just forget it?
This year is the very last year we SIX will be together.
we doesnt know whether we SIX will be still in contact next time anot.
There no time for all the quarrel.
In fact, next year, if both of us get promoted.
I really hope our last year in Bowen, Can be as sweet as possible.
With no quarrel, no problem, no discipline case.
And no need for us to be worry about you.
Can you give me the best year in Bowen?
I really hopes to make you study next year & work even harder than this year.
I believe you can get promoted. Really!
I seen you work hard this year. But, it isnt enough for next year.
Let work hard together ok?
Remember my this quote. : If you have a dream, and you want it bad enough. Work hard for it & you will get it.

I said all this because,
I really treats you like my best friend. And it will never change.
You will be my best friend too right? :)

Yeaa.
I came back to sg a few day ago.

But, tmr i leaving sg to malaysia again.
bahs.
Going malaysia AGAIN!
this time is going to KL.

Actually i thought today leaving de.
But, is tmr.

I wonder who the trip gonna like.
Must be like last time...
FULL OF AUNTIE & UNCLE.
hahahas.

I hope my primary school friend got go.
We go tour to malaysia EVERY YEAR! hahahhas.

Hais.
I wanna buy sony ericsson ear piece.
Mine lost.
I got money. But, must pay szuchian money.
):

whatever.
I just hope the trip will be fun. (:
Hahas.

Hahas.
I thought of many resolution the previous post.
let continue. i just copied & paste the previous post.

Actually, i thought about my resolution for 2008 already too!
1) Study start from 12 Jan to end of O level.
{ why 12 jan? Cause, i wanna start after my birthday which is 11 Jan}
2) Save $$ to go Superjunior concert. (:
3) Be a good kid & be home before 10! (:
4) No idol chasing. { except oversea }
5) STRICTLY NO SLEEPING IN CLASS! (: { But, please give me interesting tcher!}
6) Do my art portfolio { So, i can into my wanted poly course more easily}
7) Being MORE ALIVE! { Im soo dead in 2007. Currently still dead. }
8) Self-study for at least 1 hr per day. { AT LEAST!!!!!!!!!}
9) Read more books! { yeaa. Improve my english! (: }
10) Speak more english! (:
{ There is not chinese exam next year. So, no point of speaking chinese! HAHAHAS!}
11) Go to church regularly!
12) NO spending on WANT item of price above $20.

Ok! 12 of it.. hahahs..

Anyways, im looking for a friend to go to church with me... (:
Im going to join Y-hope. But if i alone, will be very sad..
hahas..

Currently in Malaysia! (:

Dead bored!!~

It is December already!
Christmas is coming...hmms...
sadly only one side of my family celebrate christmas...
my dad side only celebrate chinese new year! ):

Here my Christmas wishes!
So, Santa! Please see my christmas list!!
1)I want new converse shoe!
2)More clothes! {/ im sick of wearing the same clothes over & over again!}
3)Heels { LOTS OF IT! I love wearing heels. ok.i know im tall enough. but..}
4)New digital cam.
5)Good Exam result { WAHAHAHAS! Will be getting my results 7 days before christmas! Early Christmas wish can?}
6)Good health for all my loved ones & me of course! (:
7)My mother win lottery! {HAHAHAS!}
8)Sponser for Taiwan trip!
9)New laptop!
10)SUPERJUNIOR NEW ALBUM!! DONT DON! :))
11)Sponser to go SUPERJUNIOR concert next year in malaysia.
12) Friend to accompany me to superjunior concert.): { Not much friends of mine like superjunior like me siao until wanna go malaysia for them. HAHAHAS!}

Ok. Im greedy. I got 12 wishes! (:

Addition never will come true wishes! hahas
1) I WANT HAN KYUNG & SUNGMIN! (:

ok.im VERY LAME! (:

Actually, i thought about my resolution for 2008 already too!
1) Study start from 12 Jan to end of O level.
{ why 12 jan? Cause, i wanna start after my birthday which is 11 Jan}
2) Save $$ to go Superjunior concert. (:
3) Be a good kid & be home before 10! (:
4) No idol chasing. { except oversea }
5) STRICTLY NO SLEEPING IN CLASS! (: { But, please give me interesting tcher!}
6) Do my art portfolio { So, i can into my wanted poly course more easily}
7) Being MORE ALIVE! { Im soo dead in 2007. Currently still dead. }
8) Self-study for at least 1 hr per day. { AT LEAST!!!!!!!!!}
9) Read more books! { yeaa. Improve my english! (: }

i think of this now..
next time got more then think ba!
(: