ermm...

i just hope this year quickly end.
i just cant wait everything is over.
im sick of everything already.
I hate the school now.

All i can only say...
i felt betrayed without you knowing.
But, i cant do or say anything.
Everything seems happening too quickly & unknownly.
I really dont know what happening.

Why are you always the one who can throw tantrum?
Why are you always the one who can say what you are not please with?
But, WHY AM THE ONE ALWAYS TOLERATING!!!

Do you know?
I really envy you.
You have a full & perfect family.
Every birthday or christmas, you get what you want.
And i dont even have a cake for my birthday.

You get to shop with your mum.
I dont & I want to.

You have good friends to share your feelings with.
I only can keep everything to myself.
cause, people had lost my trust. Even you.

You can shout & scream when you are unhappy.
I cannot.

You said you have stress given by your parent.
But, your parents isnt asking for a top placing.
Mine is.

I have nth much to say anymore.
You didnt tell me anything & left.
Now, i know. All your promises are not real.

Hahahas.

Im getting old.
Seems like nothing interest me & tired to do anything.
Moodless.

I just dont wanna do anything.
I dont wanna talk.
I dont wanna listen.
I dont wanna think.

Just dont know what happening to me.
I just felt demotivated suddenly.
And somehow, i just wanna be alone.

I wanna be alone in my own world.
With no criticism, no unwanted thing to happen.
A world that i can do whatever i want.
whatever stupid thing i do or say wont be anyone esle's topic.

or maybe im selfish.
I dont wanna listen to others' problems.
but, it is because, i will feel very burden & hurt.
I just want to protect myself.

hais.
T_T

Ok...
I hasnt been blogging for awhile.
hahas.

It's so bored.
&&
Im soo soo soo tired.
):

I miss C. (:

请你听听这是我想念的声音
如果你还记得那年的冬季
那件大衣口袋的温暖甜蜜
有我们握爱的手心

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨 有人还等着天放晴

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽
固那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

计算不出曾经拥抱你的距离
也许我把自己想的太聪明
原来爱情需要一点点的空气
天下着雨 有人还等着天放晴

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽
固那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭难道你
就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦
你可说我傻的可以
你可说我还没放弃
想念会让人期待着奇蹟

You Make Me A Fool
我承认我对爱情有点顽
固那是因为我很在乎
你仰角看我哭
难道你就这样退出

You Make Me A Fool
我假装看不见你给的答覆
对我来说都不算数
幸福早已迷路
不知不觉我没退路
傻的辛苦

This is the song on my blog. (:
It's a song to him. (:

Hmms...

I got back my english & geo paper.
Both got 18/25.


English is only summary therefore, i could actually pass. hahas.
I was kinda shocked when teacher said im actually top with Chris & Priya who also got 18.
Cause, my english result is always a just pass grade. Anyways, thanks to my points la.
Hopefully, i can improve on my Comprehension which i alway was weak on.
My aims for O levels is a B3 in order to qualify for the media courses i wanna go.

As for Geography,
hmms, im rather disappointed that i didnt get top like usual, not trying to show off that i usually get top la, just that im disappointed with myself.
I knew Singapore case study will come out, but then, i was too lazy to memorise or understand it.
& the case study turned out to be a 12 marks question. wth. -.-
in the end, i scored something like 7/12 just base on my memory of listening in class & copying down on the notes.
rahs~
& i doubt my SS will put me up instead it will pull my combined hum results down.
Cause, the question which came out for SS, i totally didnt revise about it.
& the answer i wrote is like what i remember from the slide shown on SS lesson.
rahs.



Suddenly, i felt the stress of O levels already.
My common test results shows that I am not always so lucky & be a tyco queen.
I used to have this belief that i dont study i can score better. hahahas.
But, now seems like my belief is broken.
Hahas. It's time to study.
So....
KELLY IN ACTION.
hahahas.

11 points here i come.
I dont believe i cannot get As for my subjects.
An A2 is merely 70 marks?
So, i shall work hard for this few months to Olevels exam.
& enjoy my life after O levels exam happily.
Instead of being tense up about being not confident enough to pass O levels.
Somehow, i believe that if you had work hard for something, you will not be afraid of the outcome. Cause, you will be confident enough that you will do well.


So, Friends.
If you didnt do well for the common test, dont be upset or demotivated.
There's still time to work hard, let work hard together & pass our O levels in FLYING COLOURS~
& when we take our results, we shall cry not because, we didnt do well.
But, feeling happy that we made it!
Im starting to imagine the happy scenario.
You may be thinking that i am thinking too postively or thinking that O levels is easy.
NO. O levels is difficult to everyone of us even myself.
But, we must work very hard to conquer O levels.
So stop slacking like me.
& work hard!

Suddenly a quote came out of my mind.
" A failure is not someone who failed, but, someone who never try again."
yeahs.
Failing doesnt not meant being a failure.
You have to work hard in order not to fail again.
If you fail again, that means you have to try again instead of giving up.
Giving up means you will have nothing in the end.
So why not try again & have more hope to gain something instead of having nothing.
Giving up meant failure.
So do you want to be failure or keep trying?

Anyways,
My aim is not only about scoring 11 points to get into the course i wanted.
& also, to score better than C!!!~
hahahas.
I think i can la. he slacked through out the year still can get 14points.
So, if i study hard, i can win over him!

Life is unfair.
He is so smart but so slack & still can get14 points.
I am not smart & all i can do is to work double hard in order to catch up on him.
Life is unfair huh?

Hmms.
Ok ok. My blog seems very dead already. i know.
HAFIZAH asked me to blog so here am i blogging.

Recently, i am feeling quite down for some reason...
hmms, my common test results cannot make it la.
Taken back 3 paper already, all failed. -.-
arghhhhhhh~
I shall admit i didnt study at all.
I only studied little bit of geo.

& of course,
for some other reason, i felt very frustrated.
hais...

Hahas...
I have been too lazy to blog... hahas
the past few day was common test period for me la.
Must admit that i didnt study la. hahas.
luckily, the tests turn up to be rather so so to me.
Not difficult but not easy to la~

hmms...
Actually this few days nothing much special happened
Everything seems like a usual routine for me.
School, home & sleep.
Somehow, im starting to miss those time i spend in mdc.
Perhap, im just too bored about my current life.

Oyahs, later got chingay.
Must watch ah~
Dont know for what reason. Must support Singapore event mah~
oh.. heard that my cousin also involve in Chingay this year?
Dont know la. Just watch. hahas.

Hmms. So long since i blogged.
But, i dont know what to blog lehs...
hmms...

Just soo moodless. -.-
common test starting this week.
tmr right? lol.
i have yet to study yet.
im too lazy to start la. lol. (:

Hmms.
Met up with him today.
This is the first time, he even talk soo much to me in this 2 year plus.
Or rather, the very first time.

He finally speak up what he feel,
im of course really sad upon hearing it.
but, happy because he took the initiative to tell me as, he could really dont care about me.
Felt like crying but, i hold back my tears.
Because, i once told myself, not to cry for him.

He said he is not worth & shall find a better guy.
But, it is so difficult to let go everything.
Hais.

I dont know what to do.

Erms...

Im feeling tired for no reason again...
Hahas. Kelly is a lazy girl.

Now, it is about 11 la.
I just woke up from my evening nap. & i still feel like sleeping.
hahas..

Recently, I got craving of watching movies. Hahas..
I wanna watch Kung Fu Dunk & Cj7
I wanna watch both without fail!~
So, friends. Accompany me watch ok? hahas.

Hohoho!~

MAOMAO update his photo album. (:
NEW PICTURES!~

hehehes!







Pictures of him in school!~ :)





MAOMAO during the day of LOLLIPOP's concert. (:














MAOMAO with 翰獎 {Han Jiang}, another "new"{quite} bbt guy. (:
Looking cute together!
Hahahas!







Hahas.. MAOMAO recent pictures!
His hair make him looks girly. hahas.
But, CUTE! (:














MAOMAO with 野獸 {YESHOU}
Both my FAVOURITE!
But, obviously, i like who more la.
(:
<3



Okay. That's all la.
Hahas.
Im in MADNESS about MAOMAO la. Hahas.
MAODI MADNESS! (:

Oh.. It's raining again...
Lucky, i got home early... to slack...
If not, i will be at compass point with Sheena. Hahas.
Im lazy la, plus, super tired...
Alright... I always complain about being tired. hahas.

Today lesson was quite bored la.
SS,PE,ENG,CE

Play badminton with Chermaine,Zinnia & SHEENA during PE.
Yes. Sheena played for PE. hahas.
The feeling is damn great while we were sweating...
I like the feeling of sweating. Somehow, feel very relax...
(:

I finally got back the journal for english.
Hahas. Soo happy. I love writing Journals.(:
The next topic is Famous people.
That means celebrities can write.
I wanna write about MAOMAO & Superjunior! Hahas.
Can't wait to pen down everything about them!
Hahas.. Im so LOVING THEM. (:
MAOMAO especially!

<3 MAOMAO! (: