ahhs,
boredom is killing me.

A song that is somehow my feeling now,
I had also changed it to be my blog song. (:

Reflection by Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you’ll never know me
Every day, is as if I play apart
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I can not fool
My heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I have to
Hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What’s inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don’t know?
Must I pretend that i’m
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There’s a heart that must
Be free to fly
That burns with a need
To know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that i’m
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflections show
Who I am inside?

Okay, I got the mood to blog already.

In super good mood now!!!
woohoo!
I wrote a chinese entry about bbt.
& said about how poor thing huya is,
as he is not part of erjun
and is someone who is too quiet so, who will ask him to attend show?
so, I was quite upset then cause, i thought i wont be seeing him again after he graduate.

BUT!!!!
I just went to read woo.com
AND HUYA IS IN THE SECOND BATCH OF GUYS along with xiaole.
WEES! Im so so so glad to hear that.
So glad that huya is given a chance to show others that he could do it again.
Even though, huya is very soft spoken and hardly talk on the show BUT he is really someone with GREAT TALENTS. He not only can dance popping but also breaking. And he can beat box very very well.
AHS~ so happy! so happy!
even though, it is still sad to see the guys graduate but,
Im still glad that at least huya is still around.
I feel so happy for him too!
Cause, he is working very hard to speak more and be much more funnier.
I dont want his effort to have no results.
I want huya to prove that not only he have the talents but he also have the attitude to be a star one day. He can do it. (:
AND HE REALLY REALLY LOOKS LIKE BABY TIGER NOW!
Super cute! ((:

TOO TIRED TO WRITE ANYTHING. -.-

Read a friend's blog just now.
saw a message to me.

I thought i should tell the truth why i didnt want to go school.
It is not that school is a boring place nor im too lazy to go.

just that i dont feel belong anymore.
I used to love school alots, but now, it seems to be getting further to me.
i hate to be alone in school.
i hate it!
I used to have best friends around, having my own clique.
last time, we even quarrel with other groups of people for table we always used.
but, it just suddenly disappear.
My best friend dont talk to me,
i have to face people who i dont really likes.
and the one who treat me well now, is the one i used to quarrel
Going to school just remind me of everything.
I really hope everything will go back to normal.

Someone once told me,
I changed alots this year. I used to be talkative and active,
but, now i turned very very quiet and hardly talk.
I used to be hardworking but now, i have no motivation to move forward.
Last week,
When I did the wrong piece of worksheet instead of the one Mr Tan ask the class to do. And I still made a fuss about i didnt have the worksheet.
Mr Tan look at me furiously and seems so disappointed in me,
I almost cried in class but i didnt wanna cry in front of him so i pretended to be sleepy instead as my eye were red already.
I felt really bad that moment and really reflect on what i did for the past few months. And, i found out, i really did nothing.
And I really dont have the face to see Mr Tan anymore.
He is the one who always cheer me up whenever I did badly for my exams.
He is the one who always have hope with and believe in me.
He is the one who gave me motivation to do better.

But, what did I give back to him?
I gave him lots and lots of disappointment.
I did not give him the results he wanted to see.

Sometimes, I really felt like crying in class.
Everyone seems to answer so well when teachers asked a question
and my mind is blank.
I just seems like someone who just joined the class,
dont understand anything. i really thought of giving up.

Sometimes, i may joke and say happily that my knowledge stopped at Sec 3.
But, in my heart, i feel like killing myself for being so dumb.

Yesterday,
I cried right after my mum say like I will fail my O levels if didnt hardwork.
I really really wants to. but how?
I already dont know where to start.

No one will understand how i really felt,
Everyone seems to have such high hopes for me,
but, i cant be able to achieve them.
Everyone seems disappointed in me now.

Im really really tired.
really felt like giving up.

Im just a disappointment to people who believe in me.

just got back from school.
so early right? I left school around 11am.

Just had Social Studies paper, one of the subject which I'm more concerned about because it is something that i could score well.

and could you believe i actually cried in school because of the paper?
Not that the paper is too difficult,
JUST THAT I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO FINISH THE WHOLE PAPER!
-.-

and wth.
i knew how to do the SEQ question VERY WELL!
and i only have less than 30 minutes to finish two questions.
I spent too much time on doing SBQ, because, i thought i could manage the SBQ question well, by to my dismay, the Sources is so difficult to understand.
I don't find the question difficult but the sources.

In conclusion,
I spent time doing those questions which im unsure of and it causes me to have lesser time to do question that im VERY SURE of.

ahhhhhhh!
super disappointed with myself.
how i hope time could stop awhile for just 5minute will do.
And because i dont have time, my point are all disorganise. -.-

T.T

prelim started.
did english papers today.

quite so-so.

For composition,
i did a topic, Fame.
Quite lost at the start,
cause didnt know whether should i write a narrative composition or description.
hmms. i dont like to write storys so, i wrote description instead.
So, I wrote about Gag star.
and reminds me of ah ben.
HAHAHAHAS!

and happy happy to know that,
TOMORROW I DONT NEED TO GO SCHOOL!
Reason: I dont need to take chinese exams. chinese too good already.
HAHAS! Actually regretted not retaking chinese this year.
Cause, my chinese improved alots.
I dont need to use dictionary to find words already.
It is all in my mind!!
I got B3 last year, so if i retake this year, i might get A2 or even A1.
hais, nvm lah. im too lazy to go to chinese lessons too & even so, i dont do chinese assignment.

BUt actually not need so happy also lah,
cause, since last week i already planned not to go school tomorrow.
hees.

Had 3 days of self proclaim holiday last week.
When people ask why?
I said celebrate olympic! lols.

ANDANDAND!!
I got my favourite sportstar ok?
FENG TIAN WEI!!
hahahas!

First time i enjoyed watching table tennis and olympic.
because, of Feng tian wei.
she is super good lor.
hahahas.

模範棒棒堂真的要畢業了.
我還沒看昨天那的節目.
我昨天看到預告後, 根本是哭不停.
到現在還是, 也是哭這些這個文章的.

心里真的好難過, 我真的不想他們畢業.
這個難過比那次昊穎回台灣還難過幾萬倍.
我真的很捨不得毛毛啦. 我不要有看不到他的日子.
我一天沒看到他, 我會一整天不開心.
我沒那麼早回家, 就是因為要回家看模範棒棒堂.
我知道, 他還會有別的發展. 可是我真的很舍不得他.
一開始我就喜歡他了，可是真的開始喜歡他是當他唱殘廢時。
從那個只會跆拳道到會唱歌然後會跳舞的毛弟。
毛弟真的很用功很努力想走出自己的路，不在活在哥哥的引子下。
嗨～我真的真的很捨不得他。
我不要他畢業！！！！

另一個讓我非常難過的是 虎牙.
沒進二軍就算了,還讓他畢業!
還我不是完全看不到虎牙了, 這跟淘汰有什麼分別.
就別說有別的節目給他做了,因為他那個超安靜和白目的個性,
哪裡有可能有人會叫他去做節目呢?
我看我真的要跟牙牙說byebye 了!
牙牙, 我是不會忘記你這個佈景王子的!
也不忘記模範棒棒堂的beatbox 達人！！！

其實...
每個底迪我都會不捨的.

狗狗班長, 敖犬.
他是我覺得在棒棒堂的舞王!
想到以後都看不到他和小傑兒在棒棒堂的雙人表演了, 好難過.
在棒棒堂來新加波時, 給我們最多回憶的也是他.
PppPpp..rince...
真的捨不得!

我的小傑兒.
我在六棒里的最愛.
那個說話每次很有道理,
那個被說帥就很開心,
那個好老公型的廖俊傑!
來新加坡時,讓我跑到要死要活!
可是可以看到小傑兒就是幸福!
可是看不到他在棒棒堂了, 一點都不幸福了.

霹靂昂絲, 王子
本來一開始, 他是我最喜歡的一個.
可是我最後還比較喜歡毛毛.
可是, 最近因為群俠傳而非常喜歡他.
為什麼要當我還滿喜歡他時, 讓他畢業呢?

鋼鐵人,威廉!
在我心目中,威廉一直來都是傻傻的.
很有親切感的一個人.
他的人超好的, 不會讓我感到害怕.
六棒里, 表情最可愛的是他喔!
來新加坡時,我對威廉說加油!
他大大聲的說: 我會的! 謝謝!
超可愛的,因為他真的叫的很大聲!

小巨人, 阿緯.
大風吹達人!!
棒棒堂里, 我覺得最好笑的底迪.
沒有他在模範棒棒堂, 會好看嗎?
我會想念他的梗的!

Rocker,小煜.
沒人可以比他還再rocker了!
出了名黑臉的他,
來新加坡時是非常的親切的.
雖然,煜哥不是我喜歡的, 可是還是捨不得!:(

公主本，阿本！
模範棒棒堂，不可以沒有他！
最努力, 最優秀,最綜藝卡, 最多話的也是他!
每次為了模範棒棒堂, 不顧形象的表演,扮娘.
本公主 不會老的! 永遠青春可愛!!
不只堂主捨不得, 我也好捨不得他!

小馬,
他也是模範棒棒堂里, 很努力的一個底迪.
每次都會學新的才藝,給了我很都驚喜,
像最近他學了breaking一樣.
讓我另眼相看!

小綿羊, 野獸.
棒棒堂最可愛,最溫柔的野獸.
罵人也很可愛. 看到他就好想疼他!
唱歌也是一級棒的!
最近他也瘦下來了, 看了有點心疼.
野獸也是我愛的一個. 我超捨不得他!!

獎哥, 翰獎
小提琴+ 劍道都很棒!
我最喜歡就是當他啦小提琴時.
很帥.翰獎真的很獎喔!
捨不得!!!

小濱,
雖讓小濱已為了學業離開了棒棒堂.
可是, 當時他說要走時, 我已經很難過了.
不是說以後有空可以回來嗎?
嗨~

多多,
雖讓我真的很不喜歡他!
也常常想為什麼他還會在棒棒堂.
可是,想了想因為他在, 還可以顯示其他底迪的好啊!
可是,多多後空翻真的很棒.
那點沒人可以贏過他!

棒棒堂先生, Terry,
其實一開始我不太喜歡他的.
可是選二軍後, 我真的覺得他很棒!
他真的很用心的想把宅男塾管理的好.
他沒進二軍, 我還覺得滿可惜的.

喇叭魚, 鮪魚.
我覺得他真的很帥啊.
雖讓態度不是很好有愛遲到,
可是, 他跳舞時真的很帥!!
可以算是模範棒棒堂的popping 大人！

小祿,
模範棒棒堂唱歌最好聽的！
也很會跳舞！
也很會說話！
加入模範棒棒堂後，模範棒棒堂真的有比較好看了！
真的不可以沒有小祿！

傻子銓，李銓
模範棒棒堂的大傻子！
他真的傻的好可愛喔。
可是他打鼓時真的真的好帥，一點也不傻！
我會很想念他傻里傻氣的樣子的！

牙膏！
是有覺得最近非常非常用功的底迪。
可是當他再努力用功時，
棒棒堂就要結束了！　
他也是超可愛的阿！
怕高，怕水，怕青菜！
捨不得喔～

Elmo,
那個神經病的愛毛！
Locking 舞王不是亂說的！
是模範棒棒堂的驕傲！　
我真的會捨不得他那個聽不懂的笑話。

嗨～
我真的好捨不得喔！　
真的真的！

模範20棒
永遠是我心目中最棒的模範棒棒堂！

argh.

today's oral exam is difficult.
only the conversation part lah.

i think i did fairly well for the reading and picture part.

dont wanna talk about already.
hais hais hais!

EMO EMO. ):

Just felt that im a lousy friend.
Although, no one said it before.
but, i felt bad sometimes.

taking friend's kindness for granted and stuff.
i dont know.
sometimes, i just dont know how to treat them better.
cause, im too used to be independent in everything i do.
i like to do thing on my own,
or rather, i have my own thinking when it come to doing work.

Im also not a good listener.
nor someone who impress their thoughts or feeling.
I always kept things to myself and somehow expect people to do so too.
It is not that i dont want to talk about my feeling.
just that somehow, for me, i find it difficult to trust other people even close friends. Because, we cannot read others people mind. we dont know what others is thinking.

hais hais hais.
just a thought that came through my mind.
which made me quite upset.

perhap, i may be thinking too much.
too stressed already. 0.0

TOO TIRED PLUS LAZY TO BLOG!

Had been quite unlucky recently.
or rather,
many unwanted things happened.

super tired siah.

tomorrow i got english oral exam.
REALLY NOT IN MOOD FOR EXAMS!
ESPECIALLY EXAMS THAT SPEAKING IS NEEDED!

Just dont feel like talking.
hais hais hais!!

I WANT MAOMAO!

殘念! 殘念! 殘念!

still waiting for andy ge to explain about it,
but, shouldnt really blame on andy ge lah.

bangbangtang is being brought up by andy ge.
Each and every guys is like his child to him, he loves them even more than us does.
I believe he got his own thinking and have better plans for them

But,
somehow i just couldnt accept the facts that he is taking away all the bbt guys.
It is so unfair to those who didnt gets into erjun.
and to the fans too. -.-
and most importantly, i cannot see maomao everyday. ))))):

hais.
please dont blame andy ge already. hais...
even though, yesterday i still angry with him but after thinking through,
i think it is not his fault.
still love 張小明 alots. (:


張小明加油!

and today went to steal people pictures of the autograph session of erjun.
not really steal lah. i will credit her one hor!!
Lets upload some up.
I saved alots. hehehehehe!!


HANJIANG!! ((:
MAOMAO!!
Yeshou and maomao! I think maomao is hyper cute in this pic!
Xiao ma. ((:
Weiyu!! (:
Louis and Weiyu!!
Yagao!!
MAOMAO!!
Weiyu, Liquan and yagao
YESHOU!! CUTE~ Picture credit to yvvone,i forget her wretch account url. lols.
Have alots more but lazy to upload up!



FOREVER 21棒 !
敖犬, 小傑, 小煜, 王子, 阿緯, 威廉, 毛弟, 阿本, 野獸, 小馬, 翰獎, Terry, 鮪魚, 李銓, 小禄,
牙膏, 虎牙, Elmo, 小濱, 多多, 小樂 FOREVER!

went to woo.com forum to check out about 21棒 leaving bbt
and saw a video of a news featuring Andy ge about it.

http://s257.photobucket.com/albums/hh232/zerajay/?action=view&current=Clip_MOV0437600398823-15-20.flv

Andy哥 says 21棒沒有離開, 只是畢業!
( 21bang is not leaving but, graduating)

wth,
isnt leaving and graduating the same?
is still the same as leaving right?
SO what he have further plans of making a new show on weekends.
It will not be the same as the 模範棒棒堂 that we loves.

沒有21棒和范范姐的模範棒棒堂,　就不是模範棒棒堂了.
不管在外個有個的發展，模範棒棒堂就像是以讓他們集合的地方！
真的很捨不得！　
以前我有說過，如果有哪位弟迪被淘汰的話，我都會很會很難過。
就算是我最討厭的多多也一樣。
因為已經習慣每天看模範棒棒堂了，　
看他們慢慢的成長，從什麼都不董到現在個個都變成眾議卡。
每天可以看到他們就會覺得好幸福！
以後的模範棒棒堂一定會很陌生。
好難過！　

just read a news from woo.com forum.

http://forum.woo.com.tw/viewthread.php?tid=151096&extra=page%3D1

ERJUN already release...
They chosed 7 people instead of 5.
I should be happy with it cause, yeshou almost couldnt make it as this time it is chosen by the votes and yeshou is 7th in placing.
and maomao as usual got 1st in placing.

BUT what am i really unhappy about since maomao is already in?
IT IS THAT ER JUN IS GOING TO FORM A INSTRUMENT BAND INSTEAD OF MANDO POP BOY GROUP.
wth.
And they will not be able to release a album if one of them couldnt learn a instrument each by end of the year.
wth wth wth!
IS LIKE HELLO?
To end of the year, there is only around 4 months left, and they need to master a instrument?
who can really master a instrument in 4 months and not everyone could be so musically talented? and the guys have to both balance their studies and work. They dont even have time to train for their dances. so, how to master a instrument by the end of the year.
In the 7 guys, only liquan plays drum and guitar and aben who plays keyboard.
And, most of the guys who could dances very well.
So, instead of making use of their talents, they rather chose to cultivate new talents?
Or, they wants them to dance popping/locking/breaking when playing instrument?
It is just because they wants to er jun to be different from LOLLIPOP!
SO what if they are both boy groups? At least, I see a boy group will go further than a instrumental group! The only instrument band which i think is famous is Mayband, the rest is famous for awhile and die down. -.-

and and and THE MOST UNHAPPY PART ABOUT IT is...
Yuinhwei told me,
ANDY GE says the 20 bang will be replaced with a new batch of guys.
THAT MEANS I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO WATCH MAOMAO ON BBT ALREADY!
WTH WTH WTH!!

BBT is the only source to allow me to watch maomao everyday.
I still wanna see him everyday!!
arghh!!

and i think the rating for bbt will be damn low already.
cause, if 20bang not around, i dont think the fans will wanna watch. 0.0

wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhssssssssss~

毛毛 加油!
不要太辛苦了!
要好好學樂器喔！
You can do it! (:

yawnns. -.-

feeling bored today.
perhap, i should work on a new blogskin.
i dont want this black one anymore.
I wanna a more colourful blog skin. ((:


heh heh!

I put up the countdown timer to countdown to the day of the announcement of ERJUN. 0.0
14 MORE DAYS!!
OMG OMG OMG!!
MAOMAO MUST GET IN!
I think i will not be able to calm down until the day arrive.

Many people have been telling me that, maomao will get in for sure.
I know maomao got many postive points and many reasons to ensure him a place in erjun.
But, i shouldnt be too overconfident on him, because he do have his negative points.
maomao must must must get in.

and of course, i not only hope maomao can get in,
i hope aben and yeshou can get in too.

Anyways,
Today,
didnt go to school again for some reasons.

What I did the whole day?
I was doing my art preparation.
Painted the the final work for more than 3 hours!
shagged. first time, i find it so tired to paint. 0.0
This shows HOME is not a good place to paint!
hahahas.

and
also went to check at the yixuanfeng.com forum.
woohoo! somehow it is revived!
and super nice zijian still go there and craps.
sometimes, my beloved jg appeared randomly too!
WANNA SAY...
I MISS YIXUANFENG!

The first band i supported in SB2. AND THE ULTIMATE LOVES and ALWAY THE BEST in SB2. (:
Even though, Im the JG siao. But at least, i support the band as a group!
The 4 guys in the group rocks! (:

lalalas~
yixuanfeng fever~
jgjgjgjg always~

TIRED TIRED TIRED!

Once i reached home, i lie flat on my bed.
TOOOOOO TIRED!

It is no longer have A bad day for me.
To me is TWO bad day for me.

HELLS!
Really wanna type the f word you know?
Damn pissed off with a particular person.
Needless me to say who.

Yesterday,
was sad cum pissed off.
wugeren got eliminated,
was sad lah, but didnt cry cause,
i dont wanna to,
and i think my two guys did their best already.
and silly hirohiro forget to on his volume. 0.0
So silly.
But, Jon and hirohiro performance is like so cute!
and,
actually BEN THIA IS A NICE CHAP!
I have better impression of him now than someone.

我對伍個人是帶著抱著希望的心情.
我對他們的支持是相信他們可以帶個我們一個好的表演.
就算不是表演最好的一組, 可是我知道他們已經盡力了. 我也很 enjoy 他們的表演.
所以我不會難過, 也不會失望.

可是! 近藤裕真的真的很可愛!
Hiroshi is super super super cute!
When me and huijin wanna take picture with him together,
then he kept saying he looks retard and wanna retake.
So, we retook 4 times and he still look retards.
so, we gave up! HAHAHAHAS!
Actually, he dont look retard lah, he looks super cute in the pictures. ((:


KAILI; HIROSHI ; HUIJIN! ME AND Mr. Soh Feiwen. JOYCE! She is nice and sweet!
WITH BORIS! ((:

TODAY,
HAPPILY went to school LATE~
Had science practical exam today, therefore i can go school late today!

AND AFTER THE PRACTICAL EXAM,
I WAS CURSING AND SWEARING!
I left the 2nd page of the physic paper BLANK cause, i doesnt have enough time to do so.
And, the damn experiment is done like when im sec 3 which is like 2 years back.
And to poke the nail to the paper causing many holes in my paper. 0.0
STRESS!

Lucky, the chemistry paper is better than what i expected.
Although, i didnt write sulphate for the last question.
But i know is COPPER (II) !!! lols.
THAT'S BIG IMPROVEMENT FOR ME LOR!
hahahahas!
I HATE SCIENCE! (:

And tell you something,
I lost my pencil case due to stress,
NO! NOT DUE TO MY BLUR-NESS!
I think i left it in the chemistry lab.
Either 1)Im too stress about my physic paper,
OR 2)Im too excited to retrieve my handphone back from my examiner.

Hahahas,
Actually, i think is 2. LOLS!!
i miss my maomao too much already you see...
LOLS!

And TODAY IS GAVRIIL BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVRIIL!
((:

Hmms...
Today is a super boring day, I got enough of studying so, when im surfing the net, I got by sgclub.com and read about my horoscope...

Capricorn Woman

It is very difficult to define the characteristics profile of a Capricorn girl exactly. She can be the sexy babe on the beach or a scientist sitting in the laboratory, doing experiments that can save mankind. Whatever she is on the outside, when you look inside you will find a girl who looks for security, authority, respect and position. It is an entirely different matter how she seeks to achieve these goals. It may be as the president of a country or as the wife of an ambitious man. She seeks recognition and it doesn't matter how she gets it.

A Capricorn female is like that goat, which has to reach the top of the mountain. It doesn't matter what position she starts and how slowly she walks, she will be at the top much before those, who were running in front of her. She will do it with such subtlety that you wouldn't even know when she crossed all the milestones. She has her aims and ambitions, but they don't come before her family. She can enjoy the role of a wife or a mother as much as that of the CEO of the biggest MNC. However, you will have to provide her with equivalent respect and security.

Almost all the Capricorn women have immaculate etiquettes. They have an inherent sense of social elegance, modesty and conventional look. Though she looks completely calm, composed and balanced, don't think she doesn't have mood swings. She can become really depressed if she thinks that someone has misjudged or ill-treated her. In such a case, she may brood for months at a time. This stems from the fact that she does not feel as secure as she seems to be and fears being ridiculed or laughed at.

It is advisable not to tease a Capricorn girl; she may take it too literally. Though she may pretend otherwise, she seeks as much compliments as the other girls, probably even more. Show her that you appreciate her and make her feel secure. It will help her in opening up and showing her deliberately controlled passion. A Capricorn girl's personality doesn't include the trait of wishful thinking. She sees only those dreams that can be converted into reality. She enters a boat only when she knows that the waters are safe.

She will emphasize heavily on social etiquettes and you never see her serving the guests in anything but crystal cutlery. There will always be something fresh about her beauty and she will never ever be unattractive, even when she is wearing those hair-curlers. A Capricorn female will appear to be extremely confident, but inside she is quite unsure about her appearance. You will have to reassurance her time and again that she is attractive. She will always be honest and will expect the same from you.

At the same time, you will have to respect her family. Remember when you marry a Capricorn woman; you marry her family and relatives too. If ever you criticize her family members, better ensure that the criticism is constructive or she will never forgive you. Her love for you will never prevent her from taking care of her family. The plus point of this attitude is that she will be equally considerate towards your family too and give them the same respect as her own fellows. She will never mind if you cancel your holiday trip to pay for dad's operation.

The home of a Capricorn female will always be sparkling clean, that to with effortless ease. She is a realist and daydreaming is not her idea of passing the time. She has the ability to make even the dullest of surroundings looks warm and attractive, with her earthly passion. She will never stop you from dreaming, as long as there is bread in the house and the dreams have atleast some chances of turning into reality. As a mother, she will teach the kids discipline, economy, practicality, etiquettes and respect for elders. Make her feel loved, protected, needed and cared for and in return, she will support you in realizing your dreams and give you a deep, lasting love!

I think it is quite true!
Those in red are very very very true about me. hahahas!
I may appear confident and calm, but inside, it is different.

090808!
TODAY IS SINGAPORE's BIRTHDAY! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Actually suppose to go Malaysia today, but, it is cancelled.
And I have to study study study for today.
Sad right?

Dont know why, this year I got the national day spirit to celebrate it! lols.
But, i will be at home watching instead. LOLS!

Tell you guy something,
Even though, I often said I wanna get married to Taiwanese but,
I REALLY REALLY LOVE SINGAPORE.
It is clean, low crime rate and low chance for getting hit by disaster.

080808!




This day is also a day that i attend my cousin, Lester's wedding.
I get to meet my cousins who i only get to meet like on chinese new year. hahahas.
and till today then I know my cousin is call Lester cause, I call him Ah Hui Korkor from young.
And the story of how he and his wife, Aileen met is so sweet.
Let me say the story,
Once when Aileen is going home from school, she received a sms by an unknown number.
ANd obviously the unknown number is Lester. He smsed her a riddle which suppose to be send to his friend cause he is too bored in camp by mistake. And Aileen replied him and get to know each other. But due to their busy schedule, they did not contact until 6 years later on msn.
Then eventually they went out often and till now they are married!
A sms by mistake eventually brought a couple together. How wonderful is it right?

And Cousin Lester is a baker with his own cake shop which is take over from his dad, and he actually make the wedding cake himself. And the wedding cake is made by many small cakes.
And it is super yummy!

Looks yummy right? It is brownies with icing sugar.
Made from my cousin's hands ok? LOLS!

And I think my cousin is super cool!
On the day when he have to bring his wife home, he actually sang a song in toapoyah central with his friends in the middle of the day to his wife home.
And many people were looking at him! Super sweet! He even kneeled down!
And when he get to the door, He have to pass the bride's friend's round which is to eat biscuits with wasabi and one more thing which i forget. The biscuits have so much wasabi as if it is free. Oyah, and also he had to do push up with a durian under him. So cool! hahahas!

After attending his wedding dinner, I started to imagine how i want my wedding to be!
Hahas! Of course, Maomao is my husband to be lah{ in my imagination}. LOLS!
Maomao better go learn how to bake! LOLS! I find guys who know how to bake super cool!
It is a PLUS PLUS PLUS PLUS point for them! lols. And I find my cousin in law, Aileen being so fortunate to meet my cousin! hahahas! He is super super sweet! Anyways, Aileen is also a very very pretty and sweet looking girl! hahas!

HAHAS!
Hope that I could have another little niece or nephew soon! hahahahas!


:) :) :) :)

080808!

went to school to celebrate National Day,
Everyone should be wow that I actually attend school just to celebrate a event. 0.0
But, actually i went to school because i got extra art lessons after that.

Finally I finished my canvas painting! FINALLY!
took a picture of my canvas.



Yeah, this is my final works.
I think it is badly done! and super affected by what i think, emo emo!
Teachers tries to convince me that it is very good or nice.
But, something seems missing. Like there is no life.
Compared to my last year work, this year my art work is more dull and sad. As you can see, most of the colour used is black and white. Last year my work is more colourful.
I guess it goes with my mood, my friends says that this year I tend to be very tone down, became very quiet in school. Because this year I had became someone who lives in my own world and many people really dont understand what im think nor doing. I dont really understand neither. hahas!
ARGHHS! I STILL THINK THE ART WORK IS DAMN UGLY!

Yawns, so tired. 0.0

Anyways,
so happy today cause,
my art canvas is finally fully covered. wees!
Just need to touch up with the heart will do.
Hopefully i would at least have a B3.
Im so gonna work hard for the paper 2 for art.

Prelims is around the corner, starting next week.
stress! Somehow, i had study until quite crazy already.
hahahas! Must get at least 18 points for prelims or hopefully better!
yeah yeah~

jiayous! jiayous!

REMEMBER TO WATCH ANDIE ON 沸腾冰点!
Every weekday on Channel 8, 9PM.
沸腾冰点 is Andie's very first drama after he won the champion of Star search2007!!
沸腾冰点also features Fannwong, Pierre Png, Xiang Yun etc. lols.

For someone like me who hardly watch television now is actually watching it just for Andie!
So, MUST SUPPORT ah! 0.0

hees!

ahhhs~
so so so so so tired.
finish school around 5.10pm.

Today,
was almost late. hahas.
But, lucky, it is the bus driver fault for driving so slowly and causing many bowenian to be late too.
and,
our class was quite quiet today, as many of my classmate got suspension.
Dont wanna go further with the suspension reason and stuff.
hahas. yah,

English lesson was fun,
Azfar kept asking Mdm Lim about her life and stuff,
then she said she will not say but at last still says about herself.
Cutest form teacher! lols.
SS lesson is fun too,
cause mr chua kept making fun of papat for acting cute.
hahahas.

and the reason i stayed back in school till 5pm is ART lesson.
Yeah yeah! I worked very quickly today.
Painted the tree and two horse leg. lols.
Now, i only left the heart and the grey grass patch, and it will be all done! hahahas!
I still have two more lesson to complete them.
wees~

Now, got to prepare for the prelim art paper2 prep work.
sian. Im so lazy to draw sketch already!
Too long never draw already! 0.0
SIANS~

Anyways,
Yesterday went to watch filming of the show calefare.
BENJAMIN HENG is super CUTE!!!!!!!
Must watch Calefare on channel 5 ah!
Featuring Gurmit Singh, Fiona Xie, Utt and BENJAMIN HENG!
LOLS!

and also watch superband.
supporting J3 who was the guest of ytd show.
Jacky very cute! And looks like Amigo!
Amigo so shy when we wanted them both to take picture together.
Nique and Alex also very nice!! (:

hahahas,
AND AND AND
Someone from Soap caught my attention!!!
It is the keyboardist, Jason!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!
Hope the group dont clash with wgr. if not, i really dont know what to do?
-.-

wth,
wasted 5 bucks just to take cab to school today!
I dropped my elink card on my way to the bus stop,
so went searching for it.
and lucky, a lady picked it up and returned to me.
And DAMN! i missed two bus!
So have to take cab go to school.
Mum only gave me 10 bucks today, then 5 bucks on cab.
I only left 5 buck to live for today! How to live? lols.
Plus, elink card going to no money le. tsk~

-.-
SUAY!
DAMN SUAY!

And and and,
the class settled with class chalet after O levels already!
The girls is enthu about it, but, the guys! tsk tsk!
Felt like slapping some of them. LOLS!
How can a guy be so stingy when it comes to money and having so many request?
Dont understand. -.-

but, im so so so excited.
I hoped it will be carried out as planned. (:

Tired tired tired.
just woke up.
okay, i know it's already 2+ pm.
but, im still very very tired.
I slept around 4am ytd just to rewatch the whole series Black Sugar Macchiato.
I watch that drama the fourth time already and still can get touched, especially when guigui and wangzi part. cause both are my favourite couple.
Sadded, cannot be able to see them on the same stage already, just because they are rumour couples.

I want to slack my weekend off~ hahahahhaahhas!

just watch finish the first episode of 黑糖群俠傳.
OMG OMG OMG!!!
IT IS SO SO SO SO NICE CAN!

Wangzi is SUPER suave in the drama!
because of this drama, wangzi position rosed up to 2nd in 6bang!
cause xiaojie always best in 6bang de.

and yatou is super super fortunate to match with him,
xiao xun too!!
although, i wanted to watch guigui couple with wangzi more.
but, yatou and wangzi couple is also super cute but, i feel weird when see both of them together.
xiaoxun and wangzi couple also very cool, i wish wangzi and xiaoxun will be together at last cause, they look great together! but, wangzi always get match with the cuter ones.

Although aben only come out at the very end of the first episode.
but, he is super cute can!
And he is the best actor in the drama.
Cause, he is very good at being thick skinned. LOLS!!

ahhs~
i wanna continue watching.
but sad, this show only telecast on weekend and currently only have episode 1.

hahas.
now, i very high about wangzi. HAHAHAS!
crazy already.
Now, i high about my hubby's brother.
hees~

just came back from school.
and yeah, switch on the computer is the very first thing i do once i stepped in my house.

Now, i smell like i just did some sports. so smelly. HAHAHAHAS!
played volleyball during PE,
and I'm like cursing the sun all along and the people who are taking exam in the hall.
It is like damn warm.
SUNNY WEATHER + VIGOROUS{/ ok lah! quite!} SPORTS = SWEATSSSSS!
okay okay, i shall stop complaining since today PE lesson will be the last PE lesson in my secondary school life.

anyways, i wanna go watch 黑糖群俠傳 first!
got aben!!!~ hahahahas~